Monday, December 23, 2013

Merry Christmas 2013!

Every year I make Christmas cards and send them out. Every year except this year :) It just felt like too much and I decided to take a break. I am posting our 'card' here with pictures at the bottom from our family photo shoot a month ago done by my friend Nicole of Inspired Joy Films and Photography.

Jacob attended Crosspoint Academy for 7th grade where he achieved Merit Roll and received a Christian Character Award for Integrity. He joined band at Crosspoint and seemed to really have a knack for percussion.

(camping in July and hanging out with one of his best friends)
He volunteered at Gateway Fellowship's VBS and played very well on his first year of Babe Ruth baseball. He plays the outfield a lot and sometimes infield. He improved tremendously from the previous year and really amazed all of us, including his coach, that it was only his second year of baseball. He is a natural and we're remiss he didn't start earlier. 
We hope he will continue to play! 
Jacob was very involved in youth group at church and enjoyed sleepovers and spending time with several great friends. He went to Chicago in July to visit his mom and let us know in August he would be staying there for now. It has been a huge adjustment for us and especially the girls. We pray for him every day and want God's very best for him. He will be 14 in January. The years have flown!

Eliana turned 5 in October and is a tall and beautiful girl. 

She is very creative and loves to draw stories, tell stories, create stories....that girl can weave a tale! She has really begun to enjoy friendships this year and spending time with other kids at play dates, Play Cafe at church, and several super fun birthday parties she was thrilled to go to. She's a social girl! She lives in princess-land 24/7 and prefers dresses and dress up clothes to 'real' clothes. She loves Jesus with all her heart and humbles us as her parents with her genuine love for God and sincere questions. She is stubborn and funny and very sweet. She home schools Pre-K with mommy and attends speech therapy at Poulsbo Elementary with the amazing, Mr. Morgan!

Evangeline turned 3 just three weeks ago. 

She is one of the most funny kids we've ever met. She seriously cracks us up daily. She loves to color and is a very focused child. She'll sit and 'read' a Reader's Digest for 30 minutes, carefully looking at it page by page. She has a furrowed brow and look that can kill and is not afraid to say NO, but yet is the first kid to say, "Thank you, mommy, that was very kind of you!" She melts our hearts. She loves to boogie and we see her bobbing her head to music or shaking her buns when she thinks no one is looking.

Our newest addition, Solomon Pierce, joined the family August 12th! 
(a few hours after his birth)
He was 1 1/2 weeks after his 'due date' and 9lb 4 1/2oz and 21". He had literal fat rolls and crazy long finger nails. His birth was at home in water, attended by our midwife, Peggy, her assistant and my mom. He was born in the middle of the night so the girls were asleep and got to meet him in the morning. Solomon has struggled with colic and it's been a very tiring go for this mommy. He just turned 4 months and is outgrowing the colic as well as seeing a Pediatric Chiropractor. Solomon is full of giggles and as long as he is with mama, he is smiles and joy. His hair is growing in very blond and his eyes are so far still blue. He's affectionately become "Solly" (rhymes with Holly). He played baby Jesus in the church nativity a couple weeks ago. We just adore him!

This past year has at times been a blur for Craig and me. There have been huge challenges, such as my dad passing away and Jacob relocating. Yet huge blessings; our son being born and us seeing God work to bring peace to our family and our parenting.

Craig continues to work for TRC and is blessed with great bosses and coworkers and the ability to keep learning new things. He also managed to win me a free iPad through a sweepstakes he found out about at work (offered by a different company) guess who got an iPad??? THIS GIRL :)
The girls call him Papa or Papa Bear and seriously adore him. He took over the bedtime routine once Solomon came and I am grateful for that!

I am still a stay at home mom and incredibly blessed to be. My Etsy shop is still running (although a bit slow these days as a newborn has taken all of my time)- I've been just sort of 'breathing' since having Solomon. The colic has really kicked my butt. Prior to living in new baby land again, I was singing on worship team at church and really enjoying being in the Christmas and Easter programs. I also started playing piano at The 5, the evening gathering at church. I have been trying to remember to sit and play piano while the kids are awake and create memories singing and playing with them. Things come and go and life gets crazy, yet my soul always seems to find it's groove when I am singing.

We pray hope and blessings on you this holiday season. Whether you are in joy or sorrow, to find yourself in the arms of Jesus. Merry Christmas from the Frazier Family!

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Amazing Children

Welp, it's been almost 2 months since I posted on here. Lots of crickets. I never wanted to be a blogger that abandoned her page, but I sort of did.

I think mostly I just felt the need to follow this motto, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." As you can tell by my last post, it's been a rough go with my little man. I didn't want to post 8 blogs of me complaining about raising toddlers while also coping with a colicky baby, so I just posted nothing. But, I am still alive, still kicking! Still raising toddlers and coping with a colicky baby :) I miss blogging, though. I miss the transfer of thoughts from my brain to the keyboard. It's therapeutic for me. I have loved writing since as long as I can remember. And specifically, typing. I took keyboarding for 2 years in high school and can type at about 89 words per minute. My fingers can almost keep up with my brain, so writing long blogs goes fairly smoothly. I can definitely type faster than I can hand write!

Part of the reason for my absence has been me dealing with post partum 'something'. I have not been depressed, but I've been anxious, angry, stressed, and mean. It's been a strange time and I've been getting help. I fully plan to write more about it all, but it's still a work in progress right now as I get sorted out.

My dear baby boy is almost 4 months old. He's probably nearing 20lbs by now. We have good days and we have bad days. It's unpredictable. He is starting to allow to me put him down for 2 minutes here and there but still will only sleep on or with me (day and night). He's currently asleep on my lap as I type, which is how my night is every single night. The screaming sessions seem to overall be decreasing, but then we'll end up having a day of non stop screaming just out of nowhere. It's a weird journey. My girls both just had birthdays, they are 5 and 3 now and totally precious. Eliana, 5, is witty, smart, funny, sassy, and lives in princess land 24/7. She loves to dance, hug, sing, play pretend, and talk to her baby brother. She says to him, "Who is the sweetest baby in the world???!," over and over in a sing-song voice until he smiles at her. He adores her. Like sort of idolizes her. He looks at her with admiration and love. Pretty darn cute. Evangeline, 3, is a seriously hilarious kid. The other day Craig said to her, after she'd been flipping lights on and off a million times, "Evie, leave the lights alone, stop messing with them!!!" and she turns around to him and says totally genuinely, "You're the best daddy in the whole wide word, thank you for turning the lights off!" Oh man, we cracked up! Last week she was sick in the middle of the night and we all woke up to quite a mess in her bed. She commented, "I had a throat in my mouth and it went all over my bed." I'm not sure that a single day goes by without her saying something funny. The girls are truly a joy. Parenting is messy, frustrating, EXHAUSTING, but also beyond incredible. Even as young children, they are so individual, so unique, so forgiving, so open minded and creative. They are beautiful souls. Eliana loves Jesus so much. She loves to pray and learn Bible stories. Tonight I caught her crouched on the floor with her hands folded and she informed me she was praying to God and telling Him she loves Him. She's a pretty rad kid. Her perspective on life is always refreshing and helps me see things in a new way.

Kids are so good at dealing with the tough issues. While decorating our Christmas tree a few days ago I came across an ornament I bought in remembrance of the baby I miscarried in July, 2012.
It's me holding my little baby. I purchased it from Garden Birdie on Etsy.

As I unwrapped the tissue paper from the ornament I looked at Craig and then at Eliana, wondering if it would be ok to let her know what that ornament represents. Up to that point I'd never mentioned the miscarriage to the children. I decided to briefly mention it to Eliana and I said, "Elly, before Solomon was in my tummy, there was another little baby that lived in there. It went to heaven and lives with Jesus now." She asked what it's name was and what it looked like. I responded, "We never got to meet the baby or name it, but someday we'll get to meet it, when we go to heaven." She accepted it all so innocently, with no baggage or burden. She believes in heaven and she knows that's where Uncle Jim, Grandma Linda, Grandpa Truman, and our dog Max live. To her it makes perfect sense that our little baby would be there with family. She nodded in understanding, smiled,  and went back to decorating the tree. I felt validated to be able to speak out loud about my baby, as more than just a miscarriage, and for another person to so totally accept the whole situation. 
Today my mom was over and Eliana showed her the ornament and said, "this is mom and the baby that she used to have. We didn't get to see it or name it, it lives in heaven." So simple and accepting. Children are amazing.